On Next Deployment

The first time my husband was deployed I wasn't here yet in the US. Knowing that he goes to war is very scary to me. I was very impressed that even if he's in the war zone he did not fail to send me letters and cards dated almost everyday when they're not on a mission. I fear for his life but I was assured in his every letter that he is okay and he promised that nothing will happen to him because he still has to see me. Thankfully he got back in the US unharmed and true to his promise he visited me.

The second deployment just this year was different. We have a baby and we just moved/PCS here and I don't have that much friends nor acquaintances. Since it's his job we can't do nothing but follow his orders. While deployed the feeling of fear intensified. More so that I don't have my family with me that I can talk to whenever there's issue. Thankfully again, his deployment was only short, 5 months, and every single day he called me and sent me messages. Still, I wish that he wasn't there.

When they got back in June hubby told me that I should not set my mind that he will not be deployed because after a year they may have to go back again. I know it will come but thinking about it made me dread for that day to come. Our daughter will already feel the separation anxiety being away from her father and it will be something that I have to let her understand. I really wish that it won't happen but I have to ready my mind because days roll by very fast and before I know it I will be sending him off again.